What fill your life ?

I always though I want to chase after sex, money, work, life partner, house, best interior property and great quality design cloth, best toiletries product, best facial products, but I feel lost today, I always watch passion video clips, great love story, x video and fill my lust, desire and I can imagine I love myself or people love me. But still empty today, those cannot fill the emptiness in my heart anymore. I do not use to it , because I can always fill myself with the passion image , but now cannot anymore, so I feel lost , and I ask myself, what am I doing everyday go to work? I didn't even go to work today. I can't find any reasons to pursue what goal in my life anymore, I even think Why I want to pursue my life. I pray, I still feel lost, I watch some sermons , I still feel lost. Perhaps, I need another level of repent, because I've been repeat my sin many times. God have so much grace to sent me a big Alarm , even my ex bf That I long to be with; can't even fill that emptiness I think. God help me , I need you, need your wisdom ,need the peace and increase my faith, and forgive my sin and ignorant and disrespect and . Forgive I take your rules lightly when I need to take it serious and precious with full respect. In JESUS name I pray. Amen