My new first step

7 ( my new 1st step can be your new 1st step)


Subject: my new first step
Date: Sat, 17 May 2008 18:28:26 +0000
To my Dear Sis & dear Friends,

Tell you a good news, I finally stepping out of my cave and decided to help my friend out in her family business. will Start work on Tuesday. Is a start, I'm happy I finally brave and decided to do it. Although is no a big job, is just work as Admin Exec. and salary also much less than b4 . But it's an opportunity for me to step out.
I feel lucky, she willing to ask me a few times, and I take the chance. Thank you for all this time you all, patiencely support (mentally, verbally, ...help).
Actually I already feel very good, when we go out, you guys, just will not focus and emphasize on my financial status. You guys will just support and keep high hope, I will be better soon.

Thank you.

I know is just a start, still long way to go, still much that I need to achieve and solve......

Bear Hugs!!God Bless*

Love, thanks & Regards,

Hannah

Corrine says:
Congratulations~!!! Hannah
Corrine says:
i'm so glad to hear this nes from you

Hannah - ^-^* to all my dear sis,friends,am stepping out first step, thank you for your patience support(mentally,courage & help! says:

Corrine says:
You gonna doing well


You know last time, I always few easy to boring, but after I found my goal, and my own rely principle ,and core value, Boring never bother me, Because , I always feel like I have something to do. Like writing msg or blog to encourage others, read some inspire book encourage my self, read newspaper to learn more, do exercise., spent great time with ppl you love, learn new skill.....

Cos.I know no matter how , I already got everything

I don’t need to wait for another new bf, new relationship to fulfill the thirst in my heart (the dark voice that in your heart that always tell you is not enough), Actually , I already got a great family and friends, and every necessary and unnecessary thing in my living. Even you don’t have all those, but you have the hard experience to make you extra stronger than all those who have everything. Just look at the sample back ground of many great icons.
So my heart fills with appreciation, and wants to give out more love.

I know faith will come, when its time, no need to worry you never got it. Just be happy and appreciate everyday, you will sparkle to other

To be true, I found it from my religion, I know no matter what I face, I always have a principle I can refer to I can rely on. Cos I know the one who create human, will love and protect what he created, HE want to have good time with us; as long we thankful for that. He always catches us when we fall, and lead us to do wise choice. (But did we give our ear to Father)

When we feel down, most of the time, because we just want what we want, and when we didn’t get what we want at that time, we sad.

Are you sure every time, what you want is good for you??

If every moment you feel- I can do something for somebody, you will feel happy, you’re your heart will feel free. Even just lent your ear to a down family member, you already showing love

Even someone who is so poor of everything, they can share their life to others, how they can survive with so limited resource.

We worth something, we have value,


From this time lesson I realize last time what I know in the past is so less, feel so stupid, didn’t see the whole big picture.

I always feel like I have to prepare myself 100% ,only then I brave to go out confront the world, confront ppl. So I hide.

Just like my English, I always afraid to speak, because I think is not perfect. So feel shame to speak out/ showing it out and refuse to take chance to do practical practice.

But no one is perfect everybody is in the process of learning something all the time.

( E.g. baby walking, { if they scare to walk , the whole life he don’t need to learn walk , and don’t know how}, brushing teeth, learn to communicate well with love with so much patience and understanding, learn to wear cloth,……)

I remember that I said a simple theory to my Sister, which reminds me also. She‘s trying to keep in shape. But she’’s just keep complaining abt herself. But I tell her most of the time what you see out there everyone body shape is not perfect, then if they are scare, they just hide in the “cave” no need to go out anymore? And not need to go out exercise, improve, let other see how they change?
Let other see “ before” and “ after”.

As long you are not doing anything wrong like robber, commit adultery, kill and …,etc, You can bravely step out, even with broken English. Everybody have to feel comfortable about them, because, everyone have their own specialization +everybody is learning (even learning to learn fast)

Like me, I think:
I work too slow, maybe I'm not professional enough, and my communication skill not good enough, my English not good enough, my time manage poor, so I hide and always run away , hide in the cave, make everybody worry
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Actually, I should just bravely confront & improve everyday what I am doing is enough. Is simple, not as complicated as I think
If this boss doesn’t give opportunity to you, just change another, plus u can learn new stuff at other place. Most of the time, is not others don’t give me opportunity, Is I myself shut my own door. I don’t give chance for myself,
Because I think when I'm present out, I have to be perfect at all time.

So when you are not perfect you not worth it??

But I forget the process of being better is go through the polish process, confront and make it better
(even the “ not yet healthy attitude” ppl laugh at you, give you hard time; you can smile at them they are not perfect in their attitude too, they are no manners)

Is not easy, but have to push yourself taking the first step ( until you have a habit get in the process to become success = Polish )

Hm, I hope you will happy everyday. no matter what, you have any problem, boring, or question , you can always leave me message.

You know I when I start work, and face problem. And feel like start blaming and angry with my boss or others. I will pause and tell myself, why they are doing what they do, first I will question myself, am I doing everything I can.

If yes, then also will not blame them, just think maybe their background their mood influence them, maybe they not yet learn how to deal with a healthy way.

Talk to them understands them and technically remind them, even at that moment youI hate them.

When we feel down, most of the time, because we just think what we want, have you ever try first think in your mind what people want?
( like a mind habit) Try and do a test, ask other to aware what’s your angle of looking things –see everything you talk. You will surprise how patience and forgiving we are to ourselves.
If you love other like yourself, you are happy and success.